Second Best

I am reading, as usual. The book is thought provoking, a love story for the most part, but also a book about life. A comment made me think. Should you settle for being second best? I think perhaps not, yet sometimes that is just how I feel, second to … practically everything really.

My life has changed so much yet sometimes I feel as if I am going backwards instead of moving forward. Subtle things, yet they have an impact.

I said once before that my life needs a rethink. Maybe now is the time.

Thinking…

I didn’t post anything here for ages. I know not why, perhaps I just lost heart with writing my musings.

Sometimes, life is a pain in the ass, and other times it is wonderful. These last few weeks have been a bit of both, causing me to be both ecstatically happy and bloody miserable, not a good mood swing trend at all.

I enjoyed a wonderful time with some delightful friends and my special person. Was it really only two weeks ago? The days flew by and all too soon I had to return to normal, dreams diminished and life took over again. Work has been a trial, everyday life has been a trial, I really wish I could make changes, huge changes, because right now I am just not happy here.

I ponder the meaning of life – real life -not why are we here on earth. It all seems to be work, fight and sleep and nothing much more. Is that really all there is? If only I didn’t need a job to exist, if only my IM work would take off and make me the income I need, if only… yeah, if only!

Age…

There is no getting away from the fact that I am getting older, that we are all getting older, day by day, year by year, where does the time go?

Just how quickly we age was brought home to me when I viewed a particular photograph recently. I usually avoid them like the plague, as I hate to see images of myself. I don’t feel any older than I ever did, but an impending birthday says different. Soooo, changes were needed.

1/ Sack the useless hair stylist that I pay an enormous amount to give me a style that I never like.    – done!

2/ Find a new stylist and a new style   – done!

3/ Spend a little time on me, not too much, but just enough to take care of exercise –  done!

4/ Spend some time to think about what I put in my mouth (erm, enough of the laughter please!) we are what we eat so they say, well god help my poor insides so far! New diet, ommitting junk  – done!

5/ Visit the beautician and actullay TAKE some of those massages I have been promising myself for ages   – still to do

6/ SLEEP! much more than I do  – still to do, and probably the hardest, how the heck do I sleep when I am not tired?

7/ Drink less coffee and more water – YUK! water is just sooo boring! – will do – reluctantly

8/ Hope that all the changes result in at least a little difference in the next photograph! – still to do, and with my dislike of cameras, will probably never happen 🙂

9/ Stop being a silly, vain, pathetic lump and grow old gracefully – NOT A HOPE IN HELL! 😀

One and One

The sky isn’t always blue
The sun doesn’t always shine
It’s alright to fall apart sometimes,
I am not always you
And you are not always mine
It’s alright to fall apart sometimes

After all is said and done
One and one still is one
When we cry, when we laugh
I am half, you are half

The heart isn’t always true
And I am not always fine
We all have an angry heart sometimes

After all is said and done
One and one still is one
When we cry, when we laugh
I am half, you are half

Look how far we have come
One and one still is

One moon (one moon)
One star (one star)
I love the one we are
One thread (one thread)
One line (one line)
Let’s stand still in time

One moon (one moon)
One star (one star)
I love the one we are
One thread (one thread)
One line (one line)
That runs through our lives

After all is said and done
One and one still is one
When we cry, when we laugh
I am half, you are half

Look how far we have come
One and one still is one

I am Woman..

I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back and pretend
‘Cause I’ve heard it all before
And I’ve been down there on the floor
No one’s ever gonna keep me down again

Oh yes, I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can do anything
I am strong
I am invincible
I am woman

You can bend but never break me
‘Cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
‘Cause you’ve deepened the conviction in my soul

Oh, yes, I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong
I am invincible
I am woman

I am woman watch me grow
See me standing toe to toe
As I spread my loving arms across the land
But I’m still an embryo
With a long, long way to go
Until I make my brother understand

Oh, yes, I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong
I am invincible
I am woman ……

It’s over

So, its finally over, and the guy who everybody seemed to want to win, won. We can only hope that he is the man we all think he is and that somewhere down the line the US don’t end up regretting their choice of President, as they usually seem to do.

Politics changes people. It’s a dirty nasty game, full of sleeze and spin, believe me, more about who you know, not what you know, and in some cases, very much about ‘what’s in it for me’ not ‘what can I do for you’.

He seems a good guy does Obama, lets just pray that he will stay that way!

Retail Therapy

There are times when nothing else will do, the ONLY thing to make you feel good about yourself is SHOPPING!

I’m not a shophaholic by any means, in fact usually, it takes a very special occassion to make me consider a shopping trip. Cluttered and overheated stores, crowds of people all pushing and shoving, is not the way I like to spend my time at all. Today, however, I just felt like doing something different, anything that didn’t include work was good, so I hit the shops on a mission.

First was a beauty therapy, which was free, so always welcome. I tried different colours, and found that what I thought suited me just did not! Well, who would have thought I have a ‘cool’ look?  apparently I have and need pinks and browns to ‘bring out my eyes’ where exactly it will bring them out to she ommitted to say! I bought ‘Passion Fruit’ – a girl can always dream 🙂 then went for coffee after the makeover, but spent most of the time with the cup sliding away from the glossy lipstick – oh well …… ;p

Next (and because it was opposite the beauticians area) clothes. Dresses, (nope) skirts and sweaters of all shapes and styles. I had a fun time trying and ended up with a  brown (to bring out my eyes) sweater.

Lastly, shoes. Now this is my downfall area. I love shoes. Usually stilettos that I am unable to walk in and that are totally impractical, but what the hell, they feel good, look better and who needs to actually be able to WALK in them anyway!

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Total cost – not a lot

Total shopping satisfaction – immense!

So now, I have a new look, slippery lips, a slinky sweater and lovely shoes – anyone wanna party??

Though apparently, I forgot just one vital addition that all women should ensure they have. I must ask my friend just where she bought hers :p

Chocolate……

I like chocolate. I limit myself to how much I eat, but I really do like chocolate.

Here, we now have a new TV advertisement, aimed at the ladies, of course, as we apparently buy more chocolate than men do………

…… somehow, I think they got this just right, but, honestly, would you remember just what he was advertising, and more to the point, would you care????? 🙂