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Why? Because he is sexy and I feel like dancing 😀

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Thinking…

I didn’t post anything here for ages. I know not why, perhaps I just lost heart with writing my musings.

Sometimes, life is a pain in the ass, and other times it is wonderful. These last few weeks have been a bit of both, causing me to be both ecstatically happy and bloody miserable, not a good mood swing trend at all.

I enjoyed a wonderful time with some delightful friends and my special person. Was it really only two weeks ago? The days flew by and all too soon I had to return to normal, dreams diminished and life took over again. Work has been a trial, everyday life has been a trial, I really wish I could make changes, huge changes, because right now I am just not happy here.

I ponder the meaning of life – real life -not why are we here on earth. It all seems to be work, fight and sleep and nothing much more. Is that really all there is? If only I didn’t need a job to exist, if only my IM work would take off and make me the income I need, if only… yeah, if only!

Holding Back

I didn’t post here for quite a while. After the last post I couldn’t really think of anything to say.
The funeral was held on the day I had booked to travel. I debated, discussed, deliberated and decided. Life goes on, it always has and it always will. Life – fragile, sacred, no matter how many the years, there are never enough. With love and thoughts, we carry on, and slowly the pain lessens, slowly the sun shines again. But the memories remain.

Happiness is fleeting , hold on to what you can!

Wasted

Why do they do it? WHY, why why!

24 and dead, leaving a little child and a whole load of heartbroken friends and family. She was such a beautiful child, a lovely young woman, and now she is gone.

My heart is throbbing with pain, I cannot stop crying, and it’s all pointless cos nothing will mend it.

I want arms and hugs, love and kisses, and reassuring words. I have none of those and just have to support those who are even more affected than I am.

Life is a bitch, and sometimes, I just bloody well hate it!

Age…

There is no getting away from the fact that I am getting older, that we are all getting older, day by day, year by year, where does the time go?

Just how quickly we age was brought home to me when I viewed a particular photograph recently. I usually avoid them like the plague, as I hate to see images of myself. I don’t feel any older than I ever did, but an impending birthday says different. Soooo, changes were needed.

1/ Sack the useless hair stylist that I pay an enormous amount to give me a style that I never like.    – done!

2/ Find a new stylist and a new style   – done!

3/ Spend a little time on me, not too much, but just enough to take care of exercise –  done!

4/ Spend some time to think about what I put in my mouth (erm, enough of the laughter please!) we are what we eat so they say, well god help my poor insides so far! New diet, ommitting junk  – done!

5/ Visit the beautician and actullay TAKE some of those massages I have been promising myself for ages   – still to do

6/ SLEEP! much more than I do  – still to do, and probably the hardest, how the heck do I sleep when I am not tired?

7/ Drink less coffee and more water – YUK! water is just sooo boring! – will do – reluctantly

8/ Hope that all the changes result in at least a little difference in the next photograph! – still to do, and with my dislike of cameras, will probably never happen 🙂

9/ Stop being a silly, vain, pathetic lump and grow old gracefully – NOT A HOPE IN HELL! 😀

One and One

The sky isn’t always blue
The sun doesn’t always shine
It’s alright to fall apart sometimes,
I am not always you
And you are not always mine
It’s alright to fall apart sometimes

After all is said and done
One and one still is one
When we cry, when we laugh
I am half, you are half

The heart isn’t always true
And I am not always fine
We all have an angry heart sometimes

After all is said and done
One and one still is one
When we cry, when we laugh
I am half, you are half

Look how far we have come
One and one still is

One moon (one moon)
One star (one star)
I love the one we are
One thread (one thread)
One line (one line)
Let’s stand still in time

One moon (one moon)
One star (one star)
I love the one we are
One thread (one thread)
One line (one line)
That runs through our lives

After all is said and done
One and one still is one
When we cry, when we laugh
I am half, you are half

Look how far we have come
One and one still is one

Boxes

Boxes
All is in boxes
home in a box
family in a box
life in a box
work in a box

squares
even
straight
closed
safe…

I want to live and love in a circle,
a triangle
an oblong
a sphere
an oval

Push at the boundaries, the confines,
fight the boxes, boxes, boxes…..

I am Woman..

I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back and pretend
‘Cause I’ve heard it all before
And I’ve been down there on the floor
No one’s ever gonna keep me down again

Oh yes, I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can do anything
I am strong
I am invincible
I am woman

You can bend but never break me
‘Cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
‘Cause you’ve deepened the conviction in my soul

Oh, yes, I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong
I am invincible
I am woman

I am woman watch me grow
See me standing toe to toe
As I spread my loving arms across the land
But I’m still an embryo
With a long, long way to go
Until I make my brother understand

Oh, yes, I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong
I am invincible
I am woman ……

Perfection is….

I have been feeling somewhat miserable today, full of cold and aching and feeling very sorry for myself.

Michael Lee is a fellow IM’er, who sends me information as I promote some of his videos and meditations. Today, he sent me this, which made me laugh so much I asked him for permission to post the link here.

http://www.20daypersuasion.com/self-help-video-111708.htm

If that is perfection, I think I will pass!!